Journal with Witch ‒ Episode 4

The Anguish of Introverts and Extroverts: A Deep Dive into "Journal with Witch" Episode 4

The Introvert's Fortress

"Having someone around constantly is enough to tire me out." This sentiment, uttered by Makio in "Journal with Witch" Episode 4, resonates deeply with anyone who has a limited social battery. It's the kind of pithy statement that finds its way onto social media with a simple "real" caption, a punchline that instantly transforms a character into a generational icon. However, "Journal with Witch" goes beyond simple relatability. It delves into the complexities, the pains, and the anxieties experienced and inflicted by introverts.

Many introverts, like Makio, often find themselves needing a personal sanctuary, a fortress of solitude where they can recharge and recuperate. The absence of such a space can lead to psychological exhaustion, a feeling of being suffocated by constant interaction. It's a feeling of being trapped, simultaneously angry, ashamed, and desperate for a moment of peace. This episode poignantly captures the need for personal space and the toll that its absence can take on an individual.

The Extrovert's Loneliness

While the episode masterfully portrays the introverted perspective through Makio, it doesn't neglect the equally challenging experiences of extroverts. Asa, in stark contrast to her aunt, is outgoing and eager to connect with others. She desires to "stand out" and actively seeks interaction, as seen in her attempts to befriend the shy girl at her entrance ceremony. However, her efforts don't always yield the desired results. She often feels out of sync with her peers, and her attempts to engage in conversations sometimes come across as awkward.

It's easy for introverts to forget that extroverts can also experience loneliness. In fact, they are arguably more prone to it. The episode highlights the vulnerability of extroverts and the pain they endure when their social needs are not met. It serves as a reminder that the struggle for connection is universal, regardless of one's disposition.

The Distance Between Two Worlds

After three episodes of steadily building the relationship between Asa and Makio, Episode 4 shifts focus to the chasm that still separates them. Makio, fueled by alcohol and the presence of old friends, makes a startling declaration, denying her role as Asa's foster parent and refusing to express love for her. This moment reveals a deep-seated discomfort and a resistance to fully embracing her responsibilities.

When Makio labels Asa as immature, it's possible she's unconsciously projecting her own immaturity. Perhaps she recognizes the irrationality of projecting her sister's cruelty onto her niece. Perhaps she knows that a grown woman shouldn't feel overwhelmed by the presence of two teenagers in her home. Perhaps she's simply repeating patterns learned in childhood, habits that have calcified over time. Like Kasamachi observes, adults are more sensitive than children often realize. Makio, in some ways, still cowers before her sister.

A Teenager's Yearning

As a fifteen-year-old, Asa is more adaptable and receptive to change. She accepts Makio's lack of involvement as a given, surprised when others express concern about it. In her mind, she's simply adjusting to her new environment. Yet, beneath the surface, she yearns for more. She longs for a mother figure, someone to fill the void left by her absent mother.

She subtly invites Makio to connect with her, leaving her journal open in the hope that her aunt will read it and initiate a conversation. She probes Kasamachi for information about his relationship with Makio, seeking insight into her aunt's inner world. She's visibly disappointed by Makio's lack of reaction to her struggles at the entrance ceremony. Finally, overwhelmed by her emotions, she breaks down and confesses her loneliness during mealtimes, a moment that finally prompts a genuine conversation with Makio. The episode ensures that the viewer understands both Makio and Asa, despite their contrasting perspectives.

The Complexity of Communication

The writing in "Journal with Witch" avoids simplistic solutions to complex problems. Asa doesn't realize the negative connotations of calling Makio "Makio-chan," a reminder of her sister's dismissive attitude towards her. Makio, on the other hand, is unaware of how her curt responses affect Asa, who craves attention more than affection. These issues could be resolved through open communication, but Asa and Makio, like real people, avoid expressing their feelings when it's difficult. They allow their emotions to fester.

Makio, accustomed to avoiding confrontation, buries her head in her writing. Asa, lacking that coping mechanism, experiences physical manifestations of her distress, retreating into sleep or succumbing to tears. This authenticity makes the characters relatable and their struggles believable.

An Incomplete Resolution

The episode concludes with an authentically incomplete resolution. After emphasizing their physical separation, Makio hesitantly sits next to Asa on the couch and wraps her arm around her. However, the gesture feels unnatural, her body language stiff and awkward. Her attempt at a side-hug resembles a wrestling hold, a moment that is both humorous and poignant.

Makio's words and actions are sincere, but they are not enough for Asa. Asa requires genuine companionship, something that Makio has grown accustomed to avoiding. The episode leaves the viewer with a sense of hope tempered by realism, acknowledging the long road ahead for these two characters.

Unexpected Connections

Despite their differences, "Journal with Witch" suggests that Asa and Makio may not be as incompatible as they seem. A flashback to Makio's high school days briefly connects her to Asa's world, revealing a shared experience that she can draw upon to advise her niece. Furthermore, Makio's unconventional lifestyle and rejection of social norms align with Asa's desire to stand out.

Ironically, Makio's most "maternal" moment occurs when she encourages Asa to pursue singing, a suggestion born from her attentiveness to Asa's interests. This contrasts sharply with Asa's real mother's disapproval, highlighting the complex dynamic between them. Makio's animosity towards her sister creates a barrier between her and Asa, but it also enables her to offer support that no one else in their family can. This fragile equilibrium could collapse at any moment. Until Makio confronts her feelings about her sister, she will remain trapped in the past, unable to fully connect with Asa.